A Community Divided..

I worked really hard to unity the community... Through the blood drive campaigns, a non-profit organiation that was close to my heart. I drove like no other - and in the end, I walked away because of pride?! Because of the lack of respect / acknowledgement? ... no, I don't think so... because the lack of time & re-focused commitment. (shoot, that is the title of this "chapter" isn't it?!) Self-Focused.

I guess I gave up my "Community Focus"; because I had worked so hard for it & I started to see the faltering cracks building up along the edges of the community. I think the insult from the Mix 'n' Mingle, the insult from the awards recognition - kind of threw me over the top to not care so much about other peoples needs anymore (at least, not to care about their needs over my own)...

Feb. 2010 was very molding for me... I took control of my life again at that point. Since then, I have made many significant achievements... Some people make similar achievements once every few years - but not me... I sealed a $35,000 investment deal. (Or should I say divestment deal). I knocked my career out of the park, at least from ground level - now positioning me to focus on my next major endeavour. I travelled the world, from London to Dublin to Paris & even Amsterdam. It was one of the most spectacular trips I had ever taken, rivaling my time in California..

Now my eyes focused on the next 12 months ahead... as I hit that 30 year milestone, the completion of 1/3rd of my lifespan (if so every lucky..). I wonder if I will ever be able to travel in space by that time?! Wow, the wonders of what the next 60 years could have instore for me...

Today, I spoke to an old friend. Regional manager of the blood drive program for central ontario. It was good to hear his voice, shoot the shit. He asked me for my opinion on cultural matters. I told him, what his plans were, were in fact ideal. But it's too bad... those plans were quite different from the goal that I had envisioned as a volunteer.

I had hoped the community would have united. I had hoped that we would have evolved into intellects & not "rebels with a cause". But in life, you cannot control everything. You can only do what you think is right & let the world cards fall as they may..