God Damn!! Following this diet is sooooo difficult!! Okay, well not really... It's kind of simple, I am just being MAD LAZY!! The program seems right on point, providing the right amount of calories, in the right proportion of fat, carbs & protien... The problem is: I'm lazy to cook & go grocery shopping.
The sins of being an only child / momma's boy :( But I've got to do it!!
I've been hitting the gym about ~2 times a week. Nothing major though, because I strained my rotator cuff tendions earlier this year.. I was trying to push too much weight, and now they are strained from slight tendionitis. But the good thing is, it's forcing me to work out my arms, and legs. (usually I focus on my chest & back) - my chest was MASSIVE at one point - I was lifting 70 lbs dumbbells (yeah - do the math!! That's 140 lbs total!!). Now I'm back down to 30 lbs dumbbells :( lol, frig, girl's can bench that amount!!
... but I figure, ease my shoulders back in - build my arms, works those legs. My work outs are often brief (and worse, cause I only go twice a week). Before, I would work out hard, sweat through my shirt... but I guess something is better than nothing.
Week 1: I lost about a pound. Nothing major, but the counsellor brough up a good point. She asked me, when the last time I was under 150 lbs. ... I said: damn, I can't even remember!! :S I know the WORST I ever got was: 168 lbs. Both before I left for California, and after I finished Grad School. But the good news is: 1 year after I left for california, I had turned things around & was a lean, mean: 125 lbs!!
I'm hoping to get back there again... not 125; but 130 would be good - esp. if I can retain my chest / back mass.
The hardest part of the program for me is the: cooking part... But at least I'm eating more fruits & veggies now. I used to think Veggies were just broccolli & stuff... Now I've been introduced to my new friends Red & Green Peppers, and their cousin: Asparagus.... oh, I looooveeeeee Asparagus!! :-)
I just ordered Swiss Chalet again tonight... but still "on program" as one of their take-out meals are a Quarter Chicken & a Garden Salad... damn, it!! I just ordered a Ceaser Salad :S Okay, regardless - close to the program. I'm gonna finish a few other errands now - and leave tomorrow night for grocery shopping!!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Saturday, April 9, 2011
U Weight Loss: Letter to Future Self
Dear GC,
You dumb, fat, f*ck... If it's come down to this, it means you've been slipping on your goal to lose that 15-20 lbs of fat you've been carrying around for most of your life!! You've just hit 30 - you had the same goal when you were 16... abs, a six-pack - but as you grew up, you focused & achieved ALL your other goals, but not this one...
Rarely 'obsese' - but rarely in peak physical condition. What is it?! Finally a task that you CAN'T acheive?! You are strong enough to acheive this?! Is that what you are telling me??
You've had many addictions in the past, food, alcohol, women ... you've been able to conquer the latter two (or have you?) Have you slipped on the alcohol? Have you been binge drinking, increasing your chances of cancer, increasing your weight, damaging your liver, and hoping for the chance of yet another kidney stone?? Do you remember how that felt? The pain in your back, your stomach, vomitting in the hosptial ER bathrooms??
Or is it the food? Can you not control it? Has it beaten you? Is there finally something that you cannot overcome? You are too *Weak* to overcome? It triumphs over you??
You have achieved so much in your life - yet you let this goal, which you have place for more than half your life - to beat you... to prevent you from success... to fail yourself. In a blink of an eye, you will be 50. Where will that excessive weight be then? No drive or ability to work out, no women to impress...
You will be nothing but a fat f*ck... If you have opened this letter, it means you have failed yourself - yet again...
~ From the old you, who had wished you success.
[ As part of the program, they ask you to write a letter to yourself - in the case that you deviate from positive results... the above is my own ] !
You dumb, fat, f*ck... If it's come down to this, it means you've been slipping on your goal to lose that 15-20 lbs of fat you've been carrying around for most of your life!! You've just hit 30 - you had the same goal when you were 16... abs, a six-pack - but as you grew up, you focused & achieved ALL your other goals, but not this one...
Rarely 'obsese' - but rarely in peak physical condition. What is it?! Finally a task that you CAN'T acheive?! You are strong enough to acheive this?! Is that what you are telling me??
You've had many addictions in the past, food, alcohol, women ... you've been able to conquer the latter two (or have you?) Have you slipped on the alcohol? Have you been binge drinking, increasing your chances of cancer, increasing your weight, damaging your liver, and hoping for the chance of yet another kidney stone?? Do you remember how that felt? The pain in your back, your stomach, vomitting in the hosptial ER bathrooms??
Or is it the food? Can you not control it? Has it beaten you? Is there finally something that you cannot overcome? You are too *Weak* to overcome? It triumphs over you??
You have achieved so much in your life - yet you let this goal, which you have place for more than half your life - to beat you... to prevent you from success... to fail yourself. In a blink of an eye, you will be 50. Where will that excessive weight be then? No drive or ability to work out, no women to impress...
You will be nothing but a fat f*ck... If you have opened this letter, it means you have failed yourself - yet again...
~ From the old you, who had wished you success.
[ As part of the program, they ask you to write a letter to yourself - in the case that you deviate from positive results... the above is my own ] !
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