Don't Prevent Me...

Today, someone said.... "don't do that, don't talk about this in public"...

... how DARE you!!  how dare you tell me what to do - or what not to do...  I run my life, not caring about what others expect me to do... I do things, cause I think they are the right thing to do!!  Not cause I need credit, acknowledgement - or anything else in my life..

I already have everything I ever need in my life - money... SELF-EARNED money.  Intelligence - both of the street & from academics.  Values - not always correct, but always bestowed on me from my father to never hurt or abuse other people...  I'll admit, I've attacked corporations before - the "man", and possibly hussled from time to time - but helpless people, I have never hurt.   And.... Courage... balls to the walls, no fear of anyone - I will bring the fight to your doorstep, it just matters how much you've pushed me...

To this point, I haven't taken this issue very far... I heard it - I surprised me, not shocked me - but surprised me that it had finally hit the limelight...  I blogged about this "gang rape" & left it be...  In my eyes, my beef with that fucker was done - was over with... 

2011 - the year I vowed in my resolution to "become a 'kinder gentleman' & forgive those, I feel have wronged me in my past..."   That was my resolution - my vow for 2011; new years vows I take very seriously after reflecting on each past year on the symbolic January 3rd of every year...

Yet people keep coming to ME - talkin' about the situation.  Some say 'no one is speaking up about his past'.  I say:  'what can I really do?!  everything I know is just *childhood* hear-say' - believeable hear-say, because truly - how could such similar acts happen to so many different women, like a playbook out of a gamers strategy...  but I just walk away, cause it's not my beef anymore - it never really was my beef..

Only problem is... it's one thing for no one else to come forth & speak about it... but when the subject is brought up to me at a party, and someone has the nerve to tell me 'it's not something we should talk about in public' - .... that's where I draw the line!!  Don't you dare tell me what to do & what not to do...  I don't care who hears / hears my thoughts - if I cared, I wouldn't speak my mind, nor write my thoughts for the public to see...

How big of a deal I'm going to make of this.... I'm not sure yet. 

... but if I'm gonna blow this up on my facebook, possibly cut some ties, possibly have some PR firm target my words - it's not something I'm scared of...

I've made my money on my worth!  My worth as an employee - a driven individual, willing & eager to 'fight the system'.  Karma has been good me, and I my best to it...  You can take my reputation away, but at the end of the day - no one will deliever like me.