Part 5, because I've only beat this "post-wedding blog/facebook post" thing to death... each after successive weddings of friends...
This week, one ex got married - another one already married... and multiple girls... scars on my heart, in my hands, lesions on my brain...
I was shocked at the one who popped into my head, through my dreams this morning... a way back, play back...
Sitting there today... have I become the 'jerk'?! Barney Stinson of real life?! ...Barney had his heart broken - and evolved from that point... is this my fate as well?! ... I've been hurt in the past... and parts of me, can't seem to shake it - can't seem to get over it... can't seem to forget - my biggest flaw: "to forgive & forget", not a quality I've learnt yet - or been able to achieve... Instead, I live each & every wound in my heart and mind - day by day, day in & day out...
How do I let go, when all these cuts are so deep?!
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