An accomplished weekend... (after a shitty week); Saturday was our families "thirevala" - at our local temple... Amongst our family, it is a rather big event, because the sponsorship of this event has been a large sum of money over many years - almost a legacy if you will...
However, a legacy of my root & heritage, because I no longer carry the "family name"... I was fortunately blessed with my father's last name - not to mention all the morals & values that came along with it..!
My body is exhausted, and in pain... first I carried idols of the lord - amongst the "men" - on my shoulders.. my shoulders battered & bruised from all the weight... my feet limited as well from past injuries... I guess the part that held in my mind the most was, when I was required to "break the coconut"... symbolically, usually the eldest son does such a feat - but none were available, my father an external member of the family... as the eldest grandson, I was called upon... picking up that raw coconut shell in one hand, large macheti in the other... *Crack*, *Crack* ... and there it broke in my hands... The feeling was invigorating!! As if I had passed into "adulthood" - respected by my parents, my family as "one of them now"..
I came home & fell alseep from all the physical exhaustion from one full day 7am till 3/4pm.. my trappes still in pain, as are the arch & heels of my feet... but it is once a year, a few times in a life - where I sacrafice to the lord... and it couldn't have come at any better time!! In a *funk*; I had nearly lost all my faith... but being back home - in "my" temple... my enthusiasm restored!! My faith, reclaimed!
I was invited to several events last night - so socialize, drink & party... I chose none of them - evolving personally as myself... rather, I retreated, relaxed - at made adjustments to my early morning presentation...
Today, I realized my role as a "leader" ... I have, so to speak, "paid my dues", collected my respect - and now it is time for me to step back & claim the benefits of all the work I have put forth... A self-promotion of sorts!
As I left "the city" this afternoon... I didn't take the usual route... instead, I surpassed the urban city... banking North towards Stouffville, then East to King City, North yet again on route through Orangeville, and East to Arthur... the senery was beautiful... green fields, varied colours, distant and local cylos - silver, with colourfully painted metallic tops... yellow fields of wheat & hay, contrasting the crisp blueish green crops.... the colours were so vivid... the bright red sports car, that pulled up through that T-junction... the music blarring, the windows down... serenity... peaceful...
The visual images, engrained in my mind... the worlds nature - exactly, why I escaped from Toronto!
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