A Sober Post...

A Sober post, as I read & reflect on a "Drunken Text" ...
http://gajco.blogspot.com/2010/10/drunken-text.html

I guess, it's a reflection of where I am today...  I've noticed lately, that it is / are the people around me who are more worried about *my* relationship life / style - than I am myself...  I've been quite "single" for a couple years now...  (not saying there haven't been a number of women that have come & gone - usually casual flings, like bad business practises that are fly-by night..).  But the point is, recently I feel that it is OTHER people, that make me feel inadequate about relationships...  The process is similar to:

Friend > GajCo seeing anyone?  We need to find you someone / You need something serious / You should do this & this & this to become more stable (like me & my partner) - then you will have all the joys that (me & my partner) enjoy...

GajCo > [ thinks in head ] ... shit, they are right!?  I should, everyone else is married now, I don't want to be left behind... maybe I need to do something different, maybe I should change what's going on in my current lifestyle.. etc.

But to be quite honest, I am happy with where I am...  It would be *nice* to share where I've come / what I've achieved with someone else; not to mention watch / see them achieve just as much...

But that brings me back to the start of this post, as it was thrown off tangent (similar to my referring post)...

My Career development...  I have done well for myself...  however, now it is time to *re-focus* on MYSELF!!  Cause, let's face it... I've done it again...  Focused so hard, on achieving results for someone else (in this case my team / company)... where I have lost sight in the focus I need to develop myself & move on...

And I need to move on - as unfortunate as it is; I don't think this place in Waterloo is the end all holy grail of my career...  It was a good "foot in the door", a great opportunity for exposure & to help gain that 1-2 years of initial experience in the hedgefund / derivatives finance industry...  but farrrr from my aspirations!! 

Though, I think I have clearly identified some of the "end" upper level management roles I would like to see myself in, say.. 15 years from now... (wow, 15 years from now, I'll be 45!!)  Those goals, are *actually* very achieveable!! CFO / CEO by 55 / 60 - still possible, if I drive for it...

The point is, regardless of a drunken text - this year, I need to be more focused on where EYE want to be in 2 years... what I should be doing in that amount of time...  taking the time, to understand my focus in life - and not just driving to push other agendas throughout my time...

End Post. - 6 a.m.