GajCo - when you read this... remember: Never Quit!! Allow Nothing to Stop or Hold you back..
2008 / 2009 were definitely "low points in my lilfe"... Burnt out from a lack of happiness in my career; Burnt out by a "fake" relationships into 2007; - seeing no room or area for improvement... (it's interesting - I work harder now, than in consulting - but the passion & the fulfillment / the rewards are soooo much more significant) - which only reemphsizes I made the right decisions.
I went out on a limb in 2006 - fresh out of school; yet out on the limb... and like every compulsive gambler; the second I had an opportunity - I *DOUBLED* my risk factor by 2 fold in 2007 - and that's exactly when it all went to shit... being pushed & strained by the economy... my financial accounts depleted - at the peak of it all, my debt was close to $100,000 - One Hundred GRAND!! How ambitious was it to aim to clear that in a year and three-quarters?!
Well - as luck would have it; I just secured a deal that clears nearly 30% of that debt...
I remember at the hardest points in 2009 - I had overdue bills and interest payments that I had no idea how to make... I had become a master of *utilizing* my credit... transfering funds & money from one account, one loan, to another - making "money" out of "no money"... I played the system as best I knew how - it was from my straight scarborough roots!! Hustlin' - splittin' ttc tickets in half; dealing counterfits, hustlin' funds hear & there...
Yeah, it wasn't the most legitimate operations - but the street knowledge I gained from my youthhood in Scarborough, was unlike any other you could teach in a business school board room!!
I would used my credit to open & apply for a New Line of Credit - then pay off my old credit, with my new credit. Then withdraw from my new credit; only to put it back into the same account hence "cancelling the minimum monthly payment"... it worked. In essence, I paid for my debt by creating / passing through and closing multiple accounts - from a single account perspective, I was legitimately following the rules: minimum payments were met, open accounts eventually closed... But from a global pictures, it was just a calculated game of shifting available credit from one bank / company to the next....
At one point, I was so strapped - I would have a payment due on Monday; but unable to access any funds until the following Thursday... Things got so bad, that at some points I had to swallow my pride & email my closest contacts - my dearest friends & ask for temporary "pay day loans".... it was not impressive...
No one ever helped... but I still made it!! When others need similar help - I lent out my arm - but that's not a big issue, no big deal... Everyone had / has their own priorities in life...
The point is: I MADE IT! I FINALLY MADE IT!!!
The double gambles I made in 2006/2007 - the ones that dragged me to the verge or personal bankrupcty in 2008/2009 - have finally paid off; and not only.... have sent me on an upward trajectory for payoff & rewards...
For the crappy careers I chased & lost faith in... I found my footing, my path - and a career that is soooo intellectually stimulating & exciting that I am 100% satisfied...
As for women - you would have thought I would have learnt my lesson in 2000; 2004; 2006; 2007; even 2009 to some point..; but that too was a disappointment & the same point where I pull all my relationships on hold / quarantine... But I look at myself - and my selection in women have changed significantly!! And I'm confident it is all for the better...
All in All - I feel success - not successful, as one great speaker mentioned - you can Never be FULL of Success; hence successful is a poor choice of words... but it's true, I do feel success.
For the first time in my life, I look forward - and see, that I am completely stable now... my past was full of uncertainty & worry... but no longer; life is headed onward & upward - positive thinking...
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